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| I'm seriously at that point were enough is enough and i just need to start changing my life around. I know i'm still young, but i need to change it for the better. Seriously. I want out.
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| Today, I actually had an okay day. Didn't really do to much besides fail my math test which i already knew that i was not going to pass. Oh well, It's okay. Anywho, I spent time with my mom and I just figured out where i got my indecisiveness from! hahaha It was HORRIBLE we were looking for a place to eat for a good half hour. But it's okay we ended up eating chinese :]. Anyways, so i feel like i'm wasting my life away sitting on the computer for hours on. It's ridiculous. I feel like i have nothing to do, but there is so much I SHOULD be doing, but my stupid self just doesn't want to. I really would like to know, what is my purpose in life is. I would really love to find out. So, little by little everyday i'm trying to change my life around by doing something positive. It's working, but i feel like i'm so prone to fall back into it again and I really don't want that to happen. I need to get my priorities straight.
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| So, I think it's time to blog
and release some stress out my life. Well, lately what have i been up
too? Nothing at all damnit just school, but i feel like its just a big
bother and it's really getting on my nerves. Maybe, it's because i
think these classes that We have to go through just to go to our major
is ridiculous and time consuming and the school and government just
want our money. It's seriously making me mad. UGH. but whatever.
Probably, because i don't have anything to look forward to anymore. I
mean I need to find a job, i need a car and i really really want to get
out of this state because i feel like i'm getting nothing accomplished
and well probably staying at home doesn't help at all either. But hey
i'm saving my mom money. Like i've been wasting my time complaining
about school and not putting my best effort into it just because I
don't have the drive to encourage myself to do so. School is just a
drag i really just want to get it over with maybe if i have someone
there to go along with this then i think i'll survive becasue right now
it ain't happenening. WHATEVER UGH school stinks. Anywho, I thought life after highschool would be so much better. But i thought wrong, things just don't want to go my way, but hey i'm over it because that is life. It seems like i'm back in my junior year going through running start again, but this time i don't go to high school i'm an actual adult that should be having this responsibility to go to class like i'm suppose to. Not having a job or not having alot of your friends around, makes you think alot about your life, goals and dreams. I've wanted to be so many things before now, and now i'm just in my time of figuring what do i want to do with the rest of my life. I'm striving hard to what i want to be, but the process of it just takes to damn long. Thinking sometimes can make you crazy. Seriously. You think about what you want to do and what your lifes ambition is but once you write you forget about it. I'm seriously just waiting for something GREAT to happen in my life that inspires me and pushes me to what i want in life. I feel like i've wasted this year bitchin' and whining about stupid things that i shouldn't even be upset about. I want this rest of the year to go great and I want to reinvent myself to be a better me. I hate living the lifestyle that i'm in right now, it's not good or healthy and it's just messing up me. I need Change.
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| What the FCUK. hahaha Seriously i do this when i'm insanely bored. And as of right now i am. It's 5:10 in the Morning theres a scary Windstorm going on outside and I have a Kinda busy day tommorow. So i was reading my OLD ass entry from when i was in High School and damn i think i was a pretty Odd kid. haha Anywho LETS UPDATE! WOO hahaha funnn.....Well I'm done with High School FORVER and its time to move on. My summer is pretty great. Hanging out and just chillin partying, hookah, random moments to waterfront, man GOOD MEMORIES. So anywho, I moved down to Los Angeles, California for a bit for school i left like August 12th i believe and Oh my. How much i LOVED it there. The hot weather, sun, beaches, beautiful people and the nice whips damn. haha well I was pretty much settled down there i met ALOT of Awesome people and some bitch ass nefro ones too haha but yea getting settled....School was starting I actually got a job haha funny and everything was going pretty good. Till I got into A HORRIBLE stupid accident on the 101 south going toward Downtown L.A damnit somone hits me from the side i start spinning around hella quick my front end HITS the wall it bounces back into traffic and i get dragged my a TANKER yes a TANKER what in the world....this happend at like 10 at night too damn dumbass people UGH just ruined everything for me. I hope Whoever hit me like loses a Leg or something casue they deserve it. Anywho, I packed my bags a week later and came back to Rainy Ol' washington. what the hell. but i'm back at pierce doin the damn thing just trying to get my AA and move back into california without a car and go to some university. My Life has been through ups and downs round and round and side to side these past few months. It's crazy like i feel it's going no where. but i'll eventually figure out what my purpose in life is. I'm so over everything here like it's ridiculous i mean i love this place like no other but i just need an outlet of this place for sometime.YEA...My life has been put to halt for a little bit. My love life....seriously. hahahaha it's weird like honestly What does washington have to offer me... PLEASE SHOW ME SOME DECENT PEOPLE! alot of them are kinda retarded in the brain. That is why i do not like Washington. haha :] California people i would say different they have more of my mindset on things and most of them are really cool. WELL hm what else. I'm totally tired and i'm about to crash maybe someother time when i'm REALLY REALLY bored i'll post another one up too.
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| So Summer has been pretty fun so far. It's already Freakin The Middle of July! GEEZ! but anyways it's been fun i've hung out with jade everyday like literally everyday that she been here and it's been pretty fun partying and all that! Basically, all i've done this summer is party and hangout hahaha. and OH i went camping too! Anyways, So i am actually Moving To California! I leave August 15th To L.A! CRAZY STUFF I'm actually leaving Washington! So, yea Come Visit Me! hit me up sometime! well I have like A month from today to hang out with everybody SOOO hit me up and lets hang out before i leave :( Well i'll holla at this later! Peace yo!
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